scattered ramblings

just trying to figure out life and what God has for me to be…

A review of The Blessing by John Trent, PH.D. and Gary Smalley

The Blessing by John Trent, PH.D. and Gary Smalley

The book, The Blessing, presents a very interesting concept many of us, as parents, probably have not given much thought to. It lays out the deep need and unsaid desire children need to have the blessing of their parents. This is not just in being nice with words and positivity towards them but with actually speaking blessing over them. The book lays out the 5 elements needed in a blessing and devotes a chapter to each to thoroughly lay out what it looks like and is implemented. The last part of the book is on the results if children aren’t blessed or are raised in negativity or if the reader was raised that way. Included are steps to working through to healing in that area which are insightful. I appreciated this book because it was a subject that, although well ‘known’ to me due to reading the Bible, was not fully understood in its depth and necessity. I enjoyed how they laid out the needed elements and in a sense walked you through the concept. It helped me be more intentional in how I speak and love on my children and how I would like to bless them in the years to come. I also found the last portion very interesting and helpful in understanding where others might be coming from and things inside myself that I possibly hadn’t linked to this need. It is a valuable tool. 

(Thank you to BookSneeze for the complimentary book and opportunity to read this book!)

http://www.christianbook.com/blessing-giving-gift-unconditional-love-acceptance/john-trent/9780849946370/pd/946370?item_code=WW&netp_id=873086&event=ESRCG&view=details#curr

pronounciation

just had to share, my sweet Saylah came to me this morning and asked if there was anything she could help me organsize (yes i spelled it right) organ-Size :) aweee…love those mispronounciations kids make…and she did help out with some clean up, and at the same time made me wonder…have i been organsizing too much lately? hehe

another word she says so cute is ‘tembering’ which is her pretending, not sure how she got to that, but i love hearing it and dread the day she is corrected one too many times and it sticks…

can’t remember any other cute sayings at the moment but if i do i will be back…oh, back in the day one of the boys used to call them puddle muds (mud puddles…)i thought that was dear…

ok back to ‘organsizing’ (i can’t tell you how hard it is to keep mispelling it haha)the school shelf… :)

a whirl

one of my ‘goals’ of this year ( i am skipping resolutions, bleh…the name conjours up tastes of disappointment and guilt…haha) is to blog more…yeah, i know, that is what they all say…well, all the novice bloggers out there, not the ones who already blog beyond what is necessary (what is that anyways?) as well as not including those who say ‘blog? huh?’…but those few of us out there that enjoy reading blogs, and love writing (or rambling in my case) and want to put forth their words into the blogosphere…that is what ‘we’ all say…see? wasn’t that fun how long that took me to make somewhat of a point? do i sound tired? i am…yes…i took down the rest of the Christmas deco and said farewell to my sweet charlie brown tree (well more like my sweet ginormous charlie brown tree…it was needless but in no way puny…) and then proceeded to rearrange the whole sitting room for a ‘change’ so, that was fun but tiring, seems my projects don’t start til late afternoon or early evening…with school and meals…and all that misc stuff taking precedence (which is good right?) with my man gone tonight and the kids busy playing baseball in the basement i had a moment! yes, baseball in the basement…is that odd?   i enjoy the new look and feel and look forward to someday having someone come over and sit with me and chat with mugs of coffee on my rearranged couches…haha…might be awhile…but i will look forward to it.

there i blogged! and i blogged an ‘about my day’ blog and not just one of my ‘deep thoughts’ ones, that i really enjoy writing but am not sure anyone enjoys reading…they are wordy and if you really want to listen to them they can be a bit ‘ouchy’ at times…that is if you are open for a challenge or change…anything like that…i am, not a big fan of the ‘ouch’ part but i really want to move forward and grow as a person and as a Child of God and to do that i need to take the ouch and the uncomfortable and grit my teeth to push through and learn and grow from them…scary? sometimes…painful? a lot of the time…amazing? always…I am just grateful to be able to not be where i am and who i am forever…if i am who i am now in a year or two…hit me…and if i am going backwards instead of forward…hit me twice!

i apologize if i sounded too scattered in that last paragraph…eyes are glazing over and brain is switching to auto pilot and basically ‘thinking outloud’ became typing fingers…and there you have it…a little of what is on my mind :) another piece of my ‘goals’ for the new year and the rest of my life…now, i think i will go wake the man curled up on the couch (watching little rascals with the kids will do that to you) and get him tucked in so i can do those many, piddly little tasks that end up with me able to lay my head on the pillow…sleep…yum!

Happy New Year!

Hope you have a very wonderful New Year! May God bless you in 2009 and draw you closer to Him and His awesome plan for your life! :) May you find Peace amidst the chaos of the world as it is today… enjoy life with those you love and cherish…let them know…hold them tight!! Laugh until your side hurts…sing even if you can’t carry a tune…breathe in and let it out slowly, do this often and especially under stress, oxygen is a gift and your body likes it! :)

EXPERIENCE all this world He created has to offer…and know that there is at least one person who thinks you are the most amazing thing…if not many, many more…

Christmas Photo

Merry Christmas and God Bless!!!

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Our Christmas Letter 2008

Yet again, I sit here trying to figure out what this year has been for us.  What is worth mentioning and what really sticks out. What we have been up to, and where we are going… and how fast time seems to be passing us by. Life keeps changing and we keep adapting, but we cling to those things that are truly important to us. For us that really boils down to relationships. God. Family. Friends. Love.  With the economy acting bizarre and everyone feeling the strain, it reminds us again that our treasures are not here on earth and have never been. The only treasures stored here are the moments of love and giving that are planted in those we bless and cherish. Whether it is time or a hug or listening, uplifting or helping, trusting or restoring, forgiving or showing grace, I encourage you to be a blessing to someone this Christmas.

 Jake is now 12 and seems to get taller each time he gets out of bed! He is gaining on mom quickly and she is starting to feel old knowing she will soon be shorter than her boys… possibly girls as well! He is a tinkerer and any broken gadget we let him at is quickly dismantled and cleaned out for parts. Jake is a wiz at video games and is the ‘go to guy’ for help if one is not able to get past a ‘level’ (that is video game lingo…)He is still very interested in robotics and claws and tries to invent what he can with the little motors and wires he finds. He loves to listen to podcasts with us of preachers we enjoy and loves audio books and stories. I often find him in his room with a gadget or book with another story playing on cd. Jake is now in the youth group at church (seriously!?! when did that happen!?) and is doing 6-7th grade work. Hard to believe we only have a few years left of him daily in our lives.

Isaac is 10, nearing 11 here in February. Isaac loves to create, build and design. He shares his mom’s love of drawing and coloring and he creates all sorts of cut out ‘people’ with colors and paper. He has an extensive collection of paper, cardboard, and wood ‘things’ he has made and painted or colored. If I empty a box he is usually there to ask for it, taking it back to his room. We have to go through his boxes every few months and throw away a garbage bag of paper and cardboard. He still loves cars and the color red, he is pretty steadfast that way. Isaac likes to have things in their place (again, like his mom!) and sharing a room with his brothers can often drive him nuts. We recently put his brother’s bed above his (bunked them) and now there is more room for each of them to have their own desk/space. Isaac’s desk is a sweet, red, tool box dad had in the garage…he loves it! Isaac is in the 5th grade and is doing well. He is looking forward to heading into the youth group himself in the next year.

Eli is 8 now and he is slowly growing into a grown up kid and not my lil’ curly headed child. Elijah is creative, like his brothers and has recently been trying to find his own ‘gadget scraps’ to create things. I showed him how to draw out what he wanted to create and then draw the parts he was so excited to have his own creation. He has a great imagination and plays so well with his sisters. After the desks were put in he and Aliyah immediately set up office as lawyers. He was a lawyer for a couple days, she was his assistant. It was sweet. Eli’s passions are baseball, sports, swords and star wars. He loves to run and play ball. He is our only ‘sports’ kid, although the other kids love playing baseball with dad and shooting hoops. We unfortunately lost our dog, Hoyt last month, he was hit by a car. It was very tough on Eli as Hoyt was his baseball bud. He would hit the ball into the field and Hoyt would always bring it back. In fact, baseball at the Nelson household entailed the 5 kids vs. dad and Hoyt. Chris was the pitcher and Hoyt the fielder and the games were close! He will be missed. Eli is now in the 3rd grade and despite his ‘ants in the pants’ he is a great student.

The ‘Girls’ are in Kindergarten and now 5! We celebrated as we have with the boys, with a big 5th birthday bash. The theme was princess/knights with crowns and swords. We were able to have horses and a cotton candy machine, games and goodies. We were able to make it through the party outside and the rain held off until gift opening in the garage, at which time it down poured. Later that evening there were severe storms and a tornado…so we just stayed indoors with those who wanted to stay.

Aliyah 

Saylah, saylah, saylah…she is quite the girl. Saylah is a girly girl, she loves dressing up and changes several times a day. She loves love and cuddling. Saylah has a tendency to scream or cry when things aren’t going her way or someone is teasing her, she has a ‘flair for the dramatics’ as some would say. Saylah loves to dance in the kitchen with her daddy and it makes him melt. Aliyah enjoys it too if it is her idea and she isn’t in the ‘playing hard to get’ moment. But Saylah flings her arms around her daddy’s neck and holds on tight. She loves to dance and really likes ballerina outfits. She enjoys coloring and bringing color into the world and I have noticed recently she has become everyone’s cheerleader, encouraging them, at times even with clapping hands, it is darling. Saylah seems to have quite the guilty conscience, and i can tell when she isn’t being truthful, it seems to torment her until the truth comes out. It was evident the night she thought she would die after eating tomato leaves off my plant. I mentioned them being poisonous not knowing she had tried a couple. Getting ready for bed she broke down “I’m scared, I don’t want to die!!” It was heartbreakingly sweet. And no, she did not die, she didn’t even get a tummy ache.

 

Our year has been full and crazy like every other, but in many ways more of a time of rest and catching up. We have spent most of the summer catching up from the winter and getting ready for the next. Our summer was quite mellow. We snatched Grandma Nelson’s old pool, that had been left to the garbage pile, and tried to patch it up. It wasn’t the nicest looking thing, with a deflating ring and leaks that caused the sides to sag, but the kids loved it and spent hours outside trying to knock each other off of anything they could get to float on the water.

Chris was able to find a wood boiler this summer. He and the boys have been keeping busy cutting, hauling and stacking wood to keep us in warmth this winter. It is a tremendous savings compared to what we paid last year and a ‘character building’ experience for the kids. For some reason every time dad says ‘it is wood time!!’ the kids get quiet and scatter! (they are fast little buggers when they want to be!) If caught, they moan and sigh loudly dramatically dragging their bodies to their coats and the door. It has taken up a lot of Chris’ time, working on the boiler, the heat inside, and all the fun things that it entails, but we are thankful to have such a warm house this winter!

The last couple months have been a time of projects that have been on our minds for awhile. We opened up the kitchen by tearing out some cabinets and rearranging things. Chris decided to start it one Saturday morning and by the next Saturday he was about wrapped up. What a guy! After several more projects (albeit smaller), I am ready to pause the construction mess and continuous clean up for a couple months. The quiet of winter has hit and we have found ourselves home at nights, enjoying more family games, movies and such. We attempted our first larger puzzle last night and it keptthe kids interests for, oh, about ten minutes. They slowly tapered from helping to a spectator and from spectator to either vanishing to do something else or laying back with a glazed over look. It was interesting how quickly the help came back when there were only a few more pieces left to place!

 

Chris is still working with his dad, and they continue to have work! A large blessing we know, with the way things are and the job market upside down. Melinda(thats me), is continuing to home school the kids, and manages to stay pretty sane, for the most part. I have been baking more this holiday season and making treats. It has been fun but I need to learn to not eat so much dough (yes, raw eggs and all! yum!) I also taste test the finished products a little too much! I actually heard the words “I’m kinda ‘treated’ out” from my husband when mentioning another recipe i had in mind!

 

We are looking forward to the New Year with great anticipation and hope. We realize things in our country and on earth are not leaning in a very positive way, but our Hope isn’t in things here. Our Faith isn’t in a man or men, in a bank or institution. Our Future was wrapped in swaddling clothes and lain in a manger so many years ago. Our Hope is in Him, our Trust is in Him and our Future is in His hands. There is no safer or more peaceful a place to be.  May you feel that same Peace and Comfort this Christmas as well as this next year.

Our prayers are with you and yours…

 

 

 

is the oldest by that whole minute, but sometimes it seems years. It is interesting, their personalities fit which one was brought into the world first, without them knowing a thing about ’birth order’. Aliyah is smart, funny, and constantly bouncing, jumping or dancing. She loves music and singing but if you catch her in the act she gets embarrassed and stops (just like her mom!). She is often in her room playing with her toys and singing to her music at the top of her lungs. It is so cute, and I keep trying to capture it on video! Aliyah is a ‘button pusher’ at times and knows just what to do or say to get her sister worked up. She gets a twinkle in her eye as she does it. She is a complete tomboy who occasionally wants to be a princess. She also loves to write and has notes all over the house, her penmanship is already better than all three of her brothers.

Grateful

again…an April post…April 8th to be exact…just trying to update this blog and switch over…

here i am with my ’preface’ again! today marks the 2 year anniversary of chris’ accident…the account of that as well as the first anniversary are in the archives or ’older’ file of my blogs…i encourage you to read them if you haven’t…thanks for reading any of my blogs…really :)

 

 

2 years. man they go fast. seriously. where does the time go?..

2 years ago today chris cracked open his skull and time stood still.

2 years ago today I had a defining moment in which all of the

crap of life, all the overwhelming, super important, lopsided priority, crap…flew out the window and my mind could only think of two things, my husband and my kids…that’s it, nothing else…were they ok and safe…and alive…

not the dishes in the sink, not the mess on the floor, not the ’to do list’ or the want to’s or the wants…not are the bills paid and  what I would wear the next day or when I would get a vacation or why this person said that or this one did this…not if I was smart enough or funny enough, I didn’t care what anyone thought of me, of my home, of my family…just is chris ok and going to live and are my kids safe

with my mom…it was crystal clear…our house could have blown up that day…our belongings fly away in a twister…I wouldn’t have flinched. If they were ok, I was ok. period.

2 years ago today with an impossible to explain clarity, everything else in life that gets a person drug down on a daily basis did not exist and for a second or two and even into the week at the hospital…I could care less…if he was alright and my kids were ok.

It was an enlightening and freeing moment. It was like a gasp of air as your head crests the surface of the water after being under a few seconds longer than your body thought you should…and just like that…you start to sink back into the chaos and busyness of life as it engulfs you and swallows you back into it’s pools of needs and wants and have to’s…

 

I’m thankful for this day…for that day 2 years ago. For that moment, and that feeling…which I need to remember more often throughout the year and the chaos…I’m thankful for my husband’s life and health and that God brought him out of all of that with nothing but a couple dents now in his skull and a misc.

loose screw (literally!). I am thankful that God brought to our attention how fast life goes, and how crazy it gets and how lost we get in the shuffle of the mundane and daily ’get ’er ’dones’ going on. I’m thankful for those that took care of us during that time of need and supported us in the weeks after…as we tend to be the taking care of ’ers’ and rarely allow it to be reciprocated. They blessed us greatly and we will never forget it.

I’m thankful for the renewed passion we found amidst the situation, for God and seeking a life of ministry, for it preparing us for things in the years after and things yet to come. I’m thankful for the fire we walked for it challenged us and left us

better than before, and it continues to challenge us and refine us…because ’better’ will never be good enough…

and Im thankful for the anniversary that helps me never forget all those things I am thankful for, the knowledge gained and desire to keep learning…for the urge to strive away from complacency and busyness…towards God’s will for us…whatever that may be…it is the reason we are living and continue to be alive…

makeover

wrote this back in April and forgot to post it here… :)

makeover

well, most of you have probably noticed my new look…it is a bit obvious if you know me haha…always blonde i am now reddish/brunettish…what would you call it? what is up with that? well this past weekend i was able to attend a women’s conference in Rockford, Il…it was AWESOME!!(thanks ladies!! and men…haha)At that conference I was nominated and chosen as ‘Ms. Original ’08′ (if you didnt see the pictures already :) ) I still can’t wrap my brain around it, really, i lived through it and still…have moments of ‘why me?’ Shannon, my nominator, writes beautifully and told of how i love to take care of others and sweet things that i am trying to get through my thick head (I would love to get a copy of that!)

So…i was whisked off for a makeover, including new outfit, and taken care of by some wonderful chicas…:) i had always wanted to try a dark hairstyle so i went for it…they brought me starbucks, they chatted with me, asked me lots about myself…a video camera followed us the first part of the journey (needed to edit!) and i was my natural awkward self in front of it, trying to be funny at least…never did get to see how that turned out i was too nervous backstage to take it in…anyhoo…hair, eyebrows (THANK YOU haha), makeup, nails (thank you Genevieve!! you are an amazing artist!)…shopping at the speed of light :) haha, flashed into panera (but could i eat? i was too nervous)…a quick change in the church bathroom (comical yes! haha i thankfully was able to get deoderant!!!!) we ran around the halls of the large church with my head/face wrapped in a shawl…trying not to laugh too hard…we were such sly commandos though…we made it to the green room where the shocked looks began…i forgot what i looked like of course so wasnt ready for ‘reactions’…lots of bright wide eyes and wows…and i am thinking ‘really?’ haha…trying to get used to people looking at me…haha it always makes me uncomfortable…i guess i better get used to it cuz i was going on stage in minutes! They wrapped a sweet dance number i would love to see again (great job guys!!) and it was time…they played the video from the day…i tried to peek through the window and not puke in my mouth :) …ahhhh! Then they announced me, the doors swung open and i was escorted out to screaming and ahhhhhhs…as the transformation was realized…i look at pictures now and laugh at my posture, still holding my hands slightly dipped in shoulders…i should have flaunted the new look a bit more…note to self…when crowned and madeover, walk like you are all that and a bag of chips…for those few minutes haha…maybe? One thing i wish i had done is when she asked how i felt after the ‘amazing, new woman stuff’ i really wish i hadnt been so nervous or i would have said ‘and World Peace’…there is another of those “if this should happen again” notes…haha yeah…so they crowned me and released me to find my friends and sit down…going back to my friends and seeing their joy and excitement blessed me soooo much…we had a great service and for the rest of the night and the next day i had to get used to people smiling and complimenting me, calling me ms. original…and talking to me…those that know me know that is big for me as i am ‘shy’ in that quiet til i get to know you way(then jabber your ear off if i’ve had too much coffee) and tend to want to be ‘behind the scenes’.

Through all of this God was doing soooo much and that is why I am blogging…to share that…i shared the above details because i know many wanted to hear about it and were wondering what was going on…so i tried to do it fast (haha) and short and sweet but yeah that didnt work. so now, to the important stuff…the purpose God had in this whole situation…I do believe there were several reasons…I know He wanted to stretch me and show me things…to get more used to being ‘seen’ and to talking to people i dont know…stretching me and pulling me out of my comfort zone…in so many ways…of showing me how my friends felt about me…putting me on stage…just like he did a year ago to speak in an Embrace night (our women’s ministry), i felt like silly putty (really i am more silly putty than playdoh i think…silly in the name…nuff said)this weekend, stretched and pulled…wait maybe i am taffy! have you ever made taffy? my mom used to make it with us…it is hot and almost see through when you start…and you have to keep pulling and working it and manipulating it, stretching and pulling…over and over and over…until the color solidifies, becomes shiney and starts to set…you can’t eat it too soon because if you dont get it to that state of enough air and stretching that it is set it will stick to your teeth and you wont be able to even move your jaw…but when set you can enjoy the flavor and it is long lasting…yumminess! ok sorry, got off on an analogy bunny trail…so…the one thing i wanted to share was the last thing God was working on…you might look at me and think i have things pretty well under control, im doing fine…etc…self confident? might look it but no, not really…secure? not at all, very insecure at times…i tend believe the ‘lies’ that pass through my mind all too often, im sure we all do to a point…and that is why this was important for God to drill through my brain…i will share a little of the internal dialogue during my hair coloring/cut…and throughout the day in my head…and what God wanted me to hear in a new way from HIM this weekend.

 

 

Me: “God there are so many other’s that deserve’ ‘what have I done to deserve this, I’m just me’ ‘I’m just me’ ‘there are others that needed this more…’ i’m not worthy”..
thoughts running back and forth, slowing and then popping back up, I could practically see the words…And with each comment in my head His voice would come through and say
God: ‘stop it you ARE worthy’ ‘ you are an original’ ‘listen here you ARE loved’ ‘I appreciate YOU and what you do for ME’…’you aren’t what your mind tries to tell you that you are’ ‘you are my BELOVED’ ‘I care enough to make sure you feel loved on this weekend’ ‘I see you’ ‘I feel the hurts and lows you have gone through…I KNOW you…I CARE about you…and you are worthy of my time, my effort and above all MY LOVE…so take this love I am pouring out on you…accept my LOVE as it comes in this form for you to feel like a princess today because even though you think you are doing ok I know better, even though you are taking care of everyone else I know you need taking care of, even though you wouldn’t ask….you are worthy of their attentions and their loving on you, of them taking care of you…you are worthy because you are MINE, beautifully and originally made…and I see every tear, every fear…and it makes me love you more…makes my heart reach out for yours….makes me want to fill your heart and mind with my HEART and all MY LOVE that overflows for you…for I love you…for you just as you are, broken and frail…you are my child and I long to show you MY LOVE and MY HEART…so LET me do this for you…let me cradle you in my arms for a little bit, sit with me here…feel my LOVE poured out this way, through others who love me and want to bless you….take it in…you are so used to pouring…just take it in and cherish it…remember it…let it warm your heart and fill you to overflowing, so you can keep pouring out….may it replenish you for what is to come…for all that I have ahead for you…take my love….receive….’
Yes, as I was outwardly being loved on and made over and taken care of…God was whispering to my heart…and mind…pouring words of love in order to revive and make over a tired and drained soul…until that makeover I didn’t realize how drained…and in need of some nurturing I was. What an obvious and interesting (and cool!) way for Him to show He knew where I was at and wanted to show His love for me in a public way that I couldn’t brush off or ignore… What an amazing and humbling moment in my life.     
God is amazing!

I share this in hopes that if you are thinking the things i was thinking about being unworthy…you are NOT…and everything He was whispering to my heart that day… He wants to say to you…all you have to do is listen…because you too are His child and His Heart beats wildly with love for YOU…just as you are, He knows right where you are at…and every part of who you are…the good, the not so good…ALL of it…He loves ALL of YOU! Let Him love on you…i think it is something we need to continuously allow in and to wash over us…His love…find ways to let Him love on you…worship music, silence, His Word, nature…whatever helps you pause and focus on Him…you give him your attention and time and He will bring the Love…always…forever…

 

 

 
 

 

Grace

this was written Good Friday morning…planned to post it but things got in the way…

ok well i started this to be a paragraph for my ’about me’ section on my myspace page…was going to switch it up a bit :) but as i typed i just was hit with the magnitude of this weekend…of the humbling love that God has for us and how He showed it.We did nothing to deserve it and yet He did it…i mean…wow…whew…what a gift, what a blessing…ok there i go again…just in awe of Him…so i will stop rambling and get onto my actual ramble i ended up getting into that makes this a blog and not an ’about me’ :) haha

 

Ok here is where we are supposed to fill people in on who we are…hopefully they will like us more after reading it…try to be witty, try to be funny…try to be who they would like…right?honestly? do you honestly want to know about me? ok here goes…

i am a messed up person. i am insecure. i am at times a hypocrite (upcoming blog will explain). i am flawed in so many ways your eyes would water from reading them if i were to list them. i am striving for but at times lack integrity (again blog soon). i think too much. i allow my mind to consume me. i dislike many things about me. i don’t understand why those that love me do. i struggle with fitting in. i tend to assume and you know what that makes me…and you…haha. i don’t speak up when i should and i say things i shouldn’t. i hate who i am at times. words hurt me deeply and are hard for me to shake. my words have hurt others. i believe lies from the enemy and fight that constantly. i am weak.

HOWEVER…those things aren’t who I am or will be…I am a child of the KING…I am saved by GRACE and let me tell you I need it…we all do…without that we are nothing. I claim VICTORY over these things I am, have been, can at times fall back into…in the name of Jesus Christ!! By HIS stripes we are healed…this weekend of all times of the year we need to remember this…we need to claim this…we need to LIVE this! If HE loved me enough to die for my crappy human self then it is only right that I claim that victory and strive to Live the Life He has planned for me. To not dwell in the things I have done, or been but to repent and then break free and move FORWARD into what I CAN be and Will be THROUGH HIM! What an amazing thing! It really is mind boggling…Im done with the guilt of past mistakes, I am done with the lies from the enemy that tells me what I am…because I am not those things and if I believe that I am then I will become them. I am free, You are free…we have the choice…to live with what we humanly are which is every mistake, every hurt, every mess, every flaw OR do we choose to live in Grace…His Grace…to let it cover our wounds and heal our hearts, to let it seep into the dark recesses we don’t let people see and hate to know about ourselves…to let it flow through us and pour out to those who have hurt us or done us wrong…to live IN it and dwell IN it…Grace…that is what this weekend is about right? I didn’t deserve Christ’s amazing Love and death…I don’t…neither do you…but He gave it willingly and without demands…just that we love Him…Live in Him and His Grace…

lets strive for being worthy of it and living in it  and see where it gets us…

an unexpected new reality…feb 2008

 At the beginning of the year I posted in my lil’ update on MySpace ‘Searching for a new reality’(we had just moved, life was crazy)…little did I know what that would entail!

Ever been strolling through life when it takes a unexpected U-turn? A dip in the rollercoaster? A big change that isn’t bad but isn’t easy either? That is about what we are experiencing right now. J

Most of you know we have been pouring our hearts into The Waters…a church plant in Sartell. We have spent the last year dreaming, working and helping to create a church that is new and different and is impacting the community…it has rocked and we have felt very blessed to have been chosen for such a cool ministry opportunity! We have watched God move and touch lives and it has been an indescribable blessing.

Approach U-turn…whew! So a few weeks ago we were fasting and praying for the church, the vision for the new year…the things God wanted to do and how to do it…all that…and well, what we heard from Him wasn’t at all what we expected! He released us from our ministry at The Waters…it shocked us, it really came out of nowhere…very hard to explain…but basically He released us…unless you have been there it probably sounds hokey…hard to fathom and very hard to explain, the church is thriving, things are growing and doing great…things are full speed ahead and we had just moved down to the area, renting while we try to sell our house…all things forward and a ‘go’! What a time to be released!??? We prayed hard, struggled with the decision…things in the church were going great…but at home it had been tough…lots of strains and stresses pulled at us, and was taking its toll and we were plugging through cuz that is what we do.J But with this ‘light bulb moment’ if you will, we realized it was best for our family, to not spin all the plates we were trying to keep spinning (analogy here J ) but God ‘released’ us to remove some of those plates, reassess what plates needed spinning and just set down the ones we needed to. We couldn’t do His work fully while spinning like we were spinning…and how long could we keep the plates up and moving? We needed to slow down… Reprioritize time. Re-evaluation time. Reconnecting time. RRR… yeah… so that is the jist of what we are doing. We have moved back into our house that is going to still be slapped on the market here soon. We will be with the Waters until the 24th of Feb. Chris is still pursuing his education and ministers license…we are still pursuing the ministry and what that means for our family…we are allowing God to open our eyes to ways we can be used in the meantime and what our future holds. We LOVE The Waters, the people, the memories and ministry there…this decision has not been an easy one at all. But with it came a Peace and confirmation that it was the right one. Peace also, that the church would be fine and in fact thrive through this…and we are praying for just that and believe it fully! Already people have been stepping into ministries we have helped with and done wonderful jobs…God is good!

Thank you to all who have believed in us and supported us through this past year, your support and belief that we could do it means the world! Thank you to the Vagle’s for believing in us and thinking we would be great on The Waters team!J Thank you to our Waters family that is so dear to our heart, we will never forget you and will be visiting for SURE! Please keep in touch!!! Our prayers are with you, the church and the community and will continue to be!! J And thank you to everyone for their graciousness as we have made this decision…for your understanding too…

God rocks!…following Him is definitely not boring !

Mel & Chris

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