Grateful
again…an April post…April 8th to be exact…just trying to update this blog and switch over…
here i am with my ’preface’ again! today marks the 2 year anniversary of chris’ accident…the account of that as well as the first anniversary are in the archives or ’older’ file of my blogs…i encourage you to read them if you haven’t…thanks for reading any of my blogs…really 
2 years. man they go fast. seriously. where does the time go?..
2 years ago today chris cracked open his skull and time stood still.
2 years ago today I had a defining moment in which all of the
crap of life, all the overwhelming, super important, lopsided priority, crap…flew out the window and my mind could only think of two things, my husband and my kids…that’s it, nothing else…were they ok and safe…and alive…
not the dishes in the sink, not the mess on the floor, not the ’to do list’ or the want to’s or the wants…not are the bills paid and what I would wear the next day or when I would get a vacation or why this person said that or this one did this…not if I was smart enough or funny enough, I didn’t care what anyone thought of me, of my home, of my family…just is chris ok and going to live and are my kids safe
with my mom…it was crystal clear…our house could have blown up that day…our belongings fly away in a twister…I wouldn’t have flinched. If they were ok, I was ok. period.
2 years ago today with an impossible to explain clarity, everything else in life that gets a person drug down on a daily basis did not exist and for a second or two and even into the week at the hospital…I could care less…if he was alright and my kids were ok.
It was an enlightening and freeing moment. It was like a gasp of air as your head crests the surface of the water after being under a few seconds longer than your body thought you should…and just like that…you start to sink back into the chaos and busyness of life as it engulfs you and swallows you back into it’s pools of needs and wants and have to’s…
I’m thankful for this day…for that day 2 years ago. For that moment, and that feeling…which I need to remember more often throughout the year and the chaos…I’m thankful for my husband’s life and health and that God brought him out of all of that with nothing but a couple dents now in his skull and a misc.
loose screw (literally!). I am thankful that God brought to our attention how fast life goes, and how crazy it gets and how lost we get in the shuffle of the mundane and daily ’get ’er ’dones’ going on. I’m thankful for those that took care of us during that time of need and supported us in the weeks after…as we tend to be the taking care of ’ers’ and rarely allow it to be reciprocated. They blessed us greatly and we will never forget it.
I’m thankful for the renewed passion we found amidst the situation, for God and seeking a life of ministry, for it preparing us for things in the years after and things yet to come. I’m thankful for the fire we walked for it challenged us and left us
better than before, and it continues to challenge us and refine us…because ’better’ will never be good enough…
and Im thankful for the anniversary that helps me never forget all those things I am thankful for, the knowledge gained and desire to keep learning…for the urge to strive away from complacency and busyness…towards God’s will for us…whatever that may be…it is the reason we are living and continue to be alive…
I just read all of your posts here.. I’m enjoying your blog and getting to know you more through it. I appreciate your transparency (and your humor!). Now I should go find you on myspace!